Hey Flora,
Are you still asked by people around if you're a Catholic or a Goan, or a Punjabi? Lol, remember how your height, your name, your English, and your patient nature used to confuse people about your origin. Do you still have embarrassing times finding a pair of shoes that fit you right or a pair of jeans that fit you well and are long enough for those never-ending legs? Are you still as "Sexy"? Do guys still give you that dirty look from the corner of their eye even if you're clad appropriately :-) And hey, do those old hot pants still fit you?
Well, I'm sure you're smiling by now and also must have started feeling nostalgic. Let me remind you how beautiful your life is TODAY. Exactly a decade ago, you turned 30, and you had probably every experience one could have in a lifetime. Let me take you to some time travel, although you must have hardly forgotten any of these. You dated and married Chitrang, spending 13 years with him, and then separated in December 2014. It took away a lot of time, energy, and positivity from your life.. You were so drained that you used to cry endlessly and hardly had any other thoughts on your mind. But apart from this one experience, you've had a life full of excitement and love. Your son, Ranveer, he was 3 back then, and he used to hug you, give you a peck, and say I Love You every morning when you left for work. You lived with mom-dad for a pretty long time,e then ain't it? Wasn't it assuring to have them by your side all the time? I'm not sure if both of them are still with you, but they loved you and made every possible effort to ease the troubles of your life. Be with them forever, because they never left you.
You never fell short of money, but you had to keep struggling. Not because you were a spendthrift or you couldn't save, but because you were naive and kept lending money and never asked for it back. Gosh, imagine the kind of money you've lost to gain the wisdom you have today, but it's all worth it, just smile and move on. Are you still that way?
And who kept you going when you were so fucked up? Of course fucked up, you can smile at it now, you must be better off in life now honey, but back then, you had suicidal tendencies - I hope you are past that. And it will always be a well-kept secret why you hate the smell of any insect repellent.
So, going back to who was there for you all that time? But apart from Ranveer, mom-dad & Ben-Miru-Jiju, some close friends like Baiju, Anshi, Ankit, Raghu, Mihir - these guys were there throughout the phase, helping you in various ways so that you would get up every morning and fight like a warrior. And yes, although you claimed to be broke in all ways possible - financially, emotionally, physically, you still managed to find your way out. You took a trip to Goa alone with Ranveer, and you drove a crazy 200 kms on a bike with him. You were completely insane, and I hope you've kept yourself alive.
Getting on with the targets you wanted to achieve and your bucket list. You promised yourself to travel extensively and earn a lot of money as well as to buy a house of your own. I'm sure you've achieved some or all of these goals. You hated to be alone, and I hope you have a companion now. Also, you wanted to have a few more kids, minimum one more kid, preferably a daughter, or at most twins. I just want to ask you if you're happy and peaceful now? Whether or not you achieved these things is irrelevant.
Oh dear Flora, if you haven't yet lived your dream life, let me remind you, a decade, full 10 years, has already passed. Go right now and set your priority straight again. Throw all crap out of your life and be the queen of your own kingdom. Write more often, love a lot, visit your archived emails and Facebook account, and get in touch with everyone you love. Let people know how precious they are to you. Do what your heart says & let the society fuck off (if you still haven't let it).
Loads of Love
You Forever
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